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Sunday, 09 March 2008

being broke is so depressing. especially when your in a store and you find everything you want on sale and in your size. its almost like everyone in the world is working to tease me and test my self control. while i would like to say this is the most self control iv ever had.. i will admit that its forced on me. haha. i wish i had more money.
so thats all i really wanted to say. that im broke. and that being broke sucks. haha.

Tuesday, 05 February 2008

ok. so i guess im starting to update this a lot more often. three times within 2 months.. thats like a record. aha.

so that last post.. dont worry about it. im over it. not in the nothing is really solved type of over it. but the real over it. haha. everything is fixed.. so no worries. kay?

ok.. so i was looking over my last couple of entries and i realized that i never mentioned that i dont work at the movie theatre anymore. for most of you.. thats already old new. but i think its better if i keep this very accurate.. because then later on down the line i can remember what im actually talking about. haha. iv been reading all of my old posts.. and they are so ridiculously vague that i dont even remember what was going on or what i was talking about. haha. thats my own fault i guess. but seriously.. i just did it to avoid questions. so anyway.. yes. i work at the glorious corporation that is RADIOSHACK. haha. i started working here around march 07. i stopped working at the movie theatre around january 07. so yeah.. i was unemployed for a few months. WORST/BEST few months of my life. i was way more broke then anyone could imagine.. but i also didnt have to be at work ever. haha. so it was a little bittersweet. i wish getting rich were easier. haha.
i feel like life is rushing towards me and i have no idea what to do with it. growing up is so tough.
valentines day is coming up! im a little excited... except that i know it wont be anything big. aaron works in the morning and i work at night till 8. i know that leaves a little bit of room for some plans, but not too much. so while this year i am lucky enough to have someone to celebrate it with, i know that valentines day is just kind of a sucky holiday in general. im pretty sure its a fake-o holiday that was just made up so people would spend money. but all it really does is make most people feel lonely. wack.

Saturday, 02 February 2008

today is kind of weird. well actually.. yesterday was the weird day. but today is kind of the aftermath. im a little bit at a loss of quite how to feel. i had a really bad dream last night. and i know that seems stupid. "whats the big deal about a dream?" but no joke.. it was a ridiculously serious bad creepy weird dream. iv never been this weirded out by a dream. the whole day was all screwed up because of it. i was ok while i was at work. kuz i was keeping busy. but the rest of the night was a total disaster. it was just haunting me the whole night while i was by myself. it was kind of wack.. i was by myself, everyone was out, no one to hang out with, no one to even talk to. i dont know.. its kind of weird to even vaguely describe in this blog. so.. i think ill just end this already. i hope your day goes better than mine so far.

Thursday, 31 January 2008

i never do this anymore.

sorry for the crazy MIA on xanga. you probably havent noticed and just completely forgot i even have one anymore. haha. to be quite honest, i forgot i had one too. i was looking at my myspace and realized i had a link to my xanga. so i clicked to take a look at it.. and it led me to a blank black screen. i suppose my crazy old html codes got outdated for the site. so now i have this ghetto looking layout. its all good though.. im barely on this thing anyway.

so lets see. whats been going on in my life? i feel like nothing truly important happened to me. im already on my second semester of my third year.. and im just as lost as i ever was. im a sociology major with no idea if thats what i truly want to do for the rest of my life. im a "lost soul" as i keep telling everyone. it sounds funny.. but its true. i envy those people that knew what they wanted to be ever since they were 4 and have planned out their whole lives. it sounds like that might be boring.. but i disagree. they have a goal and they attained it. thats the most exciting thing ever. to know what youv always wanted to be and then getting to do it. i have so many ideas of what would be FUN to do. but its a question of if i would really do it. or if its realistic. or how i would go about doing it. i hope i just marry rich so i dont have to worry about it anymore. although the only ones that get that lucky are crazy hot and stupid. iv got the second one down.. but im not too sure about the first. hah.

aah. my brother got married! thats not really something that happend to me though. its more of something that happened to my brother. heidi , my sister in law, is a great addition to our family. not as wild and crazy as the tiglaos.. but shell get there eventually. shell have to if shes ever going to survive us. haha. i still dont really consider them married though. so when they kiss.. its a little gross. haha. imagine if they have kids. WEIRD. a blessing.. but still weird. ok.. actually.. i want them to have kids asap. my mom wants them more than anything. we needs more kids around. the only kid around is my neice sachi.. but shes already a teenager. so she doesnt count. theres taylor.. but we only really see her on christmas. so shes not always around either. we need a kid that will always be there when we want someone to mess with. and the wedding was beautiful. i love weddings btw. i love having an excuse to get dressed up. i never have one. or if i try to make one.. it doesnt quite work out. haha. so if you know of any weddings, balls, proms, etc. let me know! i need a reason to buy another dress and some heels.

so im sure youv already heard/seen.. but yes. theres a guy in my life. haha. in all my other entries.. iv been the vaguest as possible with anything that had to do with my personal life. truthfully it was to avoid any questions.. mostly from my family [brothers]. but im a grown woman.. and its time to just be honest. plus.. they already know about him. i brought him home with me for my brothers wedding. SCARIEST thing iv ever done in my life. hahaha. his name is aaron.. and you can see him in a few of the pictures on my myspace or on my little "photostrip" deal. but anyway.. i met him at the movie theatre i used to work at. [oh.. did i already write about how i work at radioshack now? hm.] so weve known each other for a while now. he lives up here in the bay area and hes basically the only friend i have. haha. i feel a little awkward writin about this.. but i thought id give you the quick update on that.

i got a new place now! its AMAZING. much better than that stupid villas apartmen. friends. the villas is wack and they they try to cheat you out your money. but yeah.. i moved into a house with 3 of my friends. sandra, paulina, and sarah. we have to be the coolest group of gals around. NO JOKE. haha. two story house a block away from the daly city bart. ridiculously convinient. nice big backyard with a garden [rare living in the city]. storage shed in the back. indoor waching machine and dryer. water and garbage included. 3 bedrooms, office, 2 bathroom, living room, and kitchen. its so much nicer having my own room, btw. great house. you should visit me. :D

OH! ok. so something exciting that happened to my this year was that i turned 21. the last exciting birthday of my life. hah. it was cool.. but nothing to massive as most people would expect. i stayed home for my birthday, as i do most years. but since it was monday night.. there wasnt really much to do. my family couldnt really be around since everyone had work.. but we just had dinner the weekend before. no big. oOo.. but i did get to ride a mechanical bull! so did my kuya miles. so much fun. haha. harder than i expected.. but still a lot of fun. then on my actual birthday i went to lunch with the girlfriend mica. i got to order my frist drink! haha. i got a "love martini." but it wasnt so good. i guess the bartneder saw that it was my birthday that day.. so he tried to make the drink extra special and make it a little stronger. but it turned out very YUCK. haha. then that night i just went out with the cuzzos [kirss, karla, angeli]. we went out for a nice dinner at cheesecake factory. we had a pretty cool waiter that suggested drinks. i ended up with a strawberry martini, "red headed slut", and a mojito. they were all pretty good. then after dinner we went to a bar for about 10 minutes. literally about 10 minutes. haha. i ordered a kamakazi [on the house.. since it was my birthday] and then we left. there wasnt much else to do. whats on a monday night? plus.. everyone had work the next day. so.. nothing too exciting. but it was nice. i havent drank much since then. just a bottle of wine that i bought on my birthday too. haha.

so i feel as though this is getting a little bit long. i mean.. after almost 2 years.. theres a lot to catch up on. but im sure its starting to get to that point where you just dont want to read anymore. i feel you. haha. sorry! well i feel that this is a pretty good sum of my life so far. im pretty much the same otherwise. so i hope you enjoyed this.. and i probably wont be back for another while. and if i havent talked to you in a while [which is very very likely] you should give me a call so we can catchup :] hah. alright. peace out.

Sunday, 24 September 2006

you know what bugs the crap out of me? stupid people. stupid mean people in fact. ok.. while thats true.. the person im referring to is actually not so much of the stupid. a little bit of the mean.. but not so much of the stupid. haha. whatever. my feelings are of no importance.
so im a projectionist now! how fun is that? i know its nothing really special.. but i think its pretty tyte working with all the movie films and projectors. and part of my job is to actually watch the movie. its a little harder than what i thought.. but its fun. i mostly like the part where i get to just watch the movie. haha. time goes by a lot faster than when i work in the money room. and theres a lot less rush and pressure too. i still slightly suck. but its ok. haha.
oh yeah.. a couple of blogs ago i said i got something pierced. it was my lip in case you didnt know yet. haha. i didnt want to say what it was becase my family didnt even see it yet and i didnt want everyone telling them. but yeah.. i got the right side [your left] of my lip pierced. iv had it for a while already.. MAYBE around 5 months already? it could be 6.. but for sure less than 7. its still kinda weird to think i did it. i never though of myself as a 'piercer.' but now that i have it.. im already used to it. it surprisingly didnt hurt either. it hurt SLIGHTLY after it was done and it was swollen.. but it wasnt anything i couldnt handle.
so even though this isnt too much information.. im already over this blog. so i hope it was enough for you. have fun with it. and feel free to just TALK to me instead of being all up in my xanga. haha.